i mean VIRTUAL world. see how rusty i am? rusty.
so i had a spiritual awakening/rebirth/was reborn from the desert a new, raw, honest, present, creature. i'm still a shit talking cynic, don't worry. it's just that i'm a totally different person emotionally, meaning that i can actually feel emotions now and no longer mistake the rollercoaster of anxiety, excitement and heartbreak for love.
all the buddhist concepts of being present and open-hearted and free from attachments that were concepts i was raised by but only understood conceptually are more than just concepts now. they are are reality. that sounds super annoying and pretentious i know. but it's the truth.
i was thinking about giving the run down on the last six months...but wow. what a fucking ride. i would have to quit my job to have time to write it all down. which i will do someday. but not now. let's just say my life is 100% entirely different than it has ever been before. there is a before burning man and an after. when the temple burned down with my grandmother's prayer beads inside, tied lovingly on a pink string, and the last of me was washed away and released...there was a before that and a now. i'll keep you posted on how the now is going.
(i'll probably have to explain this picture at some point as well.)
(and this one too.)
(this one is pretty self explanatory. that right there is some old fashioned ass shaking on the dance floor.)
5 comments:
i added a commenting widget thing! just for you my love. :)
xoxoxoxo
i commented. it felt really good. thanks for the opportunity. you are my favorite.
YES YES YES!!!
that's EXACTLY what it does, changes you forever. I'm so happy you got that gift!!
p.s., you couldn't be hotter. nice to see you again. :)
liz YES! such a major life changing gift. woah. i hope you are coming out to the playa this year, what a great way to meet.
oh man, I wish. I get message board e-mails from our campmates all the time and they make me sad/envious.
we're going to Hawaii in less than a month, I've never been and I'm REALLY excited. funds limit us to one vacation per year.
If I was rich, I'd burn every year. No question about it.
It's wonderful meeting blogfriends on the playa, if you can make it happen. there are sooo manyyyy distractions!
p.s., every burn gets better, you will see. :)
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